Last night I had a great deal of difficulty sleeping. I had a sinus headache as well as a regular headache, which is highly unusual for me. But that alone didn’t keep me awake. It just seemed to be one of those nights where I remained somewhere between being asleep and being awake—not feeling sleepy enough to go into a deep sleep, and not aware enough to actually feel fully awake. While I’ve experienced this kind of thing before, I had never experienced what came next.

In this kind of “twilight” sleep I was in all of a sudden what appeared …

I think much of what my last couple of years have been about is increasing my understanding of end-of-life issues as they relate to the final transition and what that means in the context of the current life. I wrote some time ago about death being simply the giving up of the physical body as the soul once again returns to the astral plane where those of us who still have to liberate from the material plane stay until being reborn once again. Wordsworth says it beautifully in this excerpt from “Imitations of Immortality” –

“Our birth is but a sleep …

I find myself with really mixed emotions lately–mixed thoughts and feelings about the lengthy transition I am in. When I started having experiences that are typically thought of as occurring within weeks or days of one’s transition, I never thought I’d be here two years later still experiencing some of the same things, and I have to admit that each day that I find myself on the planet, I sometimes wonder about this lengthy transitional process.

Sometimes it feels like I can see the beach after a very long swim, but it’s always a few strokes out of reach. As the …

For those who are familiar with astrology, this stage I’m in as I approach my transition—the one I mentioned yesterday about feeling like I’m like a plane in a holding pattern over the airport—the situation, and the feelings that go with it, are very much like the Balsamic phase between two planets. It’s the last in the series of phasal relationships that began with a new phase conjunction and eventually leads to finishing the dynamics associated with and between the two planets in a balsamic conjunction. It very much …